homesick and worksick

I am beggining to See all the stress looming at me and the hard stuff hasnt even happened. We have a Test tomorrow (friday) and i am nervous because i know how the tests are like, and there is SO much information to know! plus each day, my teachers keep giving us more work to do, and its insane! They love to give busy work, And clinicals haven't started yet. Thats next week! its a good thing im in a small town that has nothing to do, and most my friends down here are nursing students so we can all have no lives together ha ha.

I'm also feeling more homesick than i was these first two weeks, mostly because those weeks i knew i was going home for the weekend, but as of now, i dont know when i'll be back and it makes me somewhat sad. I do enjoy being out here and in the program of what i've always wanted to be, i'm following my dream, but I just really miss it all back home right now. My family, my friends, ect... I am just so grateful for phones and internet, and my car:) its so different with Roommates! wow i'm so used to living with brothers! 2 girls in my apartment were going to switch rooms because they are/were good friends, i was excited because they are.... not my type and messier than i am, wow! but over the weekend i guess there was a fight, or whatever, so now i'm stuck with the one girl and everything. let the drama begin! :( i'm also not used to sharing, so when roommie has bad allergies and coughs half the night, its called NO Sleep For You! ha ha, oh well, i couldnt sleep anyways, i was homesick and worksick anyways. and I love taking naps in the day.

Worksickness... I dont know if this word exists, but it does now: Not as in sick from or of one's job. Many people hate their jobs, or they are ok, Or are really happy to leave their jobs. Not I! I Love working, and even moreso, i LOVE TOSH! I miss it a LOT! All my co-workers were great, not a problem with a single one. I learned a lot there and have really good friends there. and am reminded of it everyday when in nursing class...go figure. I havent gone job searching yet just because i dont know yet what i can handle and everything. Not working is Driving me crazy! all i do is go to school and study, and at night do stuff with my nursing friends. And you can only study so long....
But seriously, I wish i was working at TOSH right now, everyone and everything i did there! its so weird that i'm not a regular employee, Luckily i'm prn, and i can come back and work when i'm home, if i dont get cancelled of course. That eases up on my missing my job. I have the best coworkers ! so those of you from work reading, You are great! thank you for everything and i miss you! can ya tell? ha ha
Oh and I love the patients! usually.... i mean, thats also what made work amazing was the patients. Sure they can be a pain in the..butt, but they can also be so amazing and just really cool people. Heck, they're the ones Why i want to be a Nurse! I dont know if this is weird to say, but i really just want to go and change the linens or do a dressing change right now ha ha,

I'm Sorry if this is a whiny Blog: looking at it, it kinda does. Even though i am homesick and worksick, i am grateful for you all and glad to have you all a part of my life! better? ok good!

Great story: i was shopping for groceries at walmart and when getting my stuff scanned, the weight thing wasnt working for the apples, and so since the machine was being troublesome, the casheir lady gave them to me Free!!!! i should have grabbed 10 more apples! ha ha! i was SOO happy! I love apples! the joys of a poor college student:)

I know things are going to get better it just takes a while. You all are great! this is all for now!